I'll raise your wait with "just do". Keep going, keep doing, you're already trying and that is succeeding because the worst you can do is not try. Keep doing. Keep being, keep experiencing, keep evolving - grow your mind, your budget, your perspective, your own garden, your relationships, career, vocabulary, bookshelf - whatever matters to you, keep doing. Never wait for the good things to come or they won't - do. Do and expect the bad and good because some bad (while not always necessary) can help us appreciate the good when we achieve it, and see how far we've come from misfortune, or immaturity, circumstance or fear.

You got this. Fight the thoughts. You're bigger than your mind!