I wish I had a good answer to this. I thought I’d at least comment and say I have had a lot of the same thoughts lately. I’m putting a lot of effort into therapy and trying to navigate my way into a healthier mindset, yet I can’t seem to shake the often overwhelming shame around my life not panning out as I had hoped and worked so hard for. My social circle has dwindled to a couple of people, I spend most of my time at home since I work from home and have very little in the way of fulfilling hobbies. My wife and I have not been able to have children and have had two miscarriages in the last year. I had wanted to be a father more than anything.

Anyways, I’m right here with you friend. Know that as you fight these battles there are others fighting similar and you are not alone.