You are not alone, OP But here is a virtual hug 🫂 Life got a little hard lately There is nothing called wasting my life You need to work on all your life situations that are causing you to be miserable. Why do you feel you wasting your life ( analyzing what kind of mental distortions leading to this) I had the same kinda thinking what my therapist called balck and white thinking which made me a perfectionist and having unrealistic life standard on my self 🤔