I act like I do. I buy myself things sometimes. I don't cut myself or run at brick walls. But I still dislike me.
I could have been far better, I could have worked harder, and not been abnormal. Well, maybe not much choice on the latter. I know I could have been nicer, and less angry. More generous and less judgemental, especially for someone with so much to be judged. I feel I've sucked up far more resources from society than I'll ever give back.
What's to like, let alone love?