Looking forward to seeing you in group when you lose the self hating incel crap and actually try instead of mistaking an endless search for a crutch that will let you stay toxic for therapy. And i mean that sincerely - about one in five teens i work with now came from a conservative upbringing and have so much internalized ableism and homophobia I have cried after... Because of how much they have grown in just a few months around their peers who are helping them lose that attitude. Go to therapy or don't, but find a support group (or make one). You've been alone too long. I know from experience.

Also, at a societal level - consider that most therapists are paid garbage working for most health care organizations. They could go into private practice (or be a stripper, since you mentioned) and make more but they don't. Do you know why? a lot of them, not all, or even most, but a lot - actually do care. when you find one, and open up, then maybe you'll find therapy is worth every damn penny and then some.

I think therapists should be paid triple what they are today because of how desperately we ALL need competent, effective, and compassionate care. I didn't come here just to be a crank - I came looking for perspectives I haven't heard before. I pity people who only ask questions to confirm their biases, not challenge them.