Thank you for your response. At the end of the day I hope you make sure to take care of yourself. As I get older I become increasingly pacifistic, but I still recognize that some people simply do not have a choice.

War can bring out the worst in people. People that would have otherwise been amicable become enemies because of their nationality. And the generational PTSD and animosity takes a long time to heal from.

This poem still gets me.

https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44329/the-man-he-killed