Our conscious faculty was very much shaped by hunting in community by plan. That movement from hunting to agriculture would free the mind for thoughts of self, ... seems likely.

I was searching for truth and looking for literal truth, so i left the Church at an early age. When i decided to look at Christianity, in order to debunk the lies, i found the only way I could continue was figuratively: if woman was made "from Adam's rib", then a literal reading was out. ... However! if removing a "rib" from Adam made Eve then, i can work with that figuratively; cuz if someone showed me the particular mutation event that created mammalian gender, i might just say something like that. Only later did i learn that the hebrew precluded my reading; to late, what's done is done.

In October of 2000, on an e-mail list called Alexandria, i was chatting with people about mythology and the nature of idea and such, and started an ajin with a Rabbi from Calgary. After a day or two meditating on Kabbalah i started seeing little flashes of light. Now, full disclosure, I'm a chronic weed smoker. It was dry that summer and for the time of the discussion and ajin i did not partake; about two months. Just before my experience, we got some weed and i had some.

It was a week long meditative experience. I'm not given to visions or hallucinations. This was on and off like a tap, like someone threw a switch. I first found myself in a verdant valley, the next day inside the Trojan horse, the next burried under Roman cobblestones. Seven days; i had no idea such a thing was possible.

Articulating the nature of consciousness is difficult. Constraining it to us human individuals is all too easy. If the Church is a body, then maybe truth is a person. Maybe. There's no need for the supernatural; only for unconstrained sense-ability. I vote binding energy for the solution to the hard problem of consciousness. I think there's a driving function/transfer function relationship between the cortex and the rest of the brain, and my experience is what happens when the transfer function drives; i was a spectator, a witness.