I appreciate the honesty and perspective. It's just so difficult because he is a wonderful person, I really do love him and want him to be happy. He always says he would be lost without me and I just can't imagine ever hurting him. But I'm not sure that I am happy, I'm not sure that I want this and I'm not sure this is right for me. It breaks my heart but I don't want to hurt him. I want it to work so so badly but I'm not sure what else I can do