Wow. Just wow! It's amazing that none of the people in your family stepped up and took responsibility for what they did. And worst of all was your mother. It was her job to protect you. She should accept responsibility for having failed that task. Instead, she blows you off and laughs at you?

I know you would love to have some justice, OP. I know you would love to have some of these people say -- on the record -- "You're right, OP. And I was complicit in the shitty things that happened to you." But that's never going to happen.Even if they did, all you'd get out of it would be one moment in which you could shout out loud, "YES! I was RIGHT!!!" ...and then what?

None of these people are worthy of you. The sanest, most empowering thing you can do would be to let these people go. Let the past go. Stop replaying old scenarios over and over again in your head. Stop creating dialogues in your mind where one or more of them confess to their sins against you and apologize, or where you accuse them and they accept their blame. None of these thoughts does you any good! Yes, it was valuable to have dredged them all up so you could look at and accept your horrible childhood reality-- but they've served that function already. It is time to move on into a life unencumbered by the horrors of the past, and unencumbered by any of these awful people.

Never give them another thought! Let them go! Find new people!

I can't tell you how liberating it was for me to finally let go of my father. Ever time I saw him after, I didn't even have any anger left. Just ...nothing. So, I'd be polite. Why stir up any drama? I no longer needed anything from him! He died without ever knowing that he had ceased to exist for me years before. I was free of the guy. Free!!!

And that's what I wish for you, OP. That you be free!