Submitted by throwaway2647352 t3_xtc2cq in tifu
Ok just for some context: My therapist said posting this somewhere anonymously might help me move on/accept/forget what happened because I was so upset about it This happened last week and whilst it’s still SO embarrassing I guess in a way it’s funny now since this could happen to anyone. Also no, I’ve never shat myself before this apart from as a child, which is why I was so upset.
So on Tuesday I’m in college 9-4, so I can’t just not eat until I get home like I usually do to avoid needing the toilet whilst at college. I ate mcdonald’s at around 11:30 and by 12 I needed to shit. This was even worse because I had no lessons until 2, but not enough time to go home and poo and get back in time since I live pretty far away.
I’m far too awkward to poo in a public toilet, but as we’re walking around my stomach is starting to really hurt and I keep on having to fart. As we are walking back to college it’s starting to get unbearably bad and now my friends are starting to notice me acting weird. At this point I start looking for toilets but as I only just started college in september I didn’t know where any where, so I just said that I feel sick and i’m going to go home.
I panic and literally waddle to the nearest bus stop, where ONE OF MY OTHER FRIENDS WAS, so of course she starts talking to me and then sits next to me on the bus. I try to stay calm and hope this like feeling of urgency will pass but it literally started coming in waves of pain and stomach cramps.
Now the embarrassing part. Around 15 minutes later we are like halfway to the bus station and this absolutely horrible feeling came on that I just couldn’t hold it in. I hadn’t shit myself but my body sort of involuntarily pushed and it was like poking out which felt absolutely horrible. It smelt so bad and the worst part was it was slightly touching my underwear so I had to like awkwardly hover over my seat. I’m sat there overthinking feeling like i’m about to have a panic attack because I feel like I can’t hold it any longer and at this point i’m texting my friend (who’s sat literally next to me) saying we need to just get off the bus because I NEED the toilet and she starts laughing because of the smell so I got off and she followed me.
Now people in the street are all staring at me because I literally keep grabbing my ass through my jeans and am walking like I’ve shat myself. I’m in tears from how bad my stomach hurt whilst my friend is almost crying laughing at me and I just knew I wasn’t gonna make it to the nearest toilet (5 mins walk).
I just stood still out of desperation and started to fully shit myself and I physically couldn’t stop it. It felt absolutely disgusting especially because I had to walk to some toilets. It was so bad that a literal turd slid down my leg and onto the floor IN PUBLIC. I cleaned up as best as I could, threw my undies in the bin and tried to hide the stain on my jeans with my coat. Then I got the bus home and properly got it all off me in the shower before throwing the jeans and socks away.
TLDR: If you need to poo, don’t try waiting until you get home because sometimes you just can’t.