High school love is such a weird thing. Hormones and neurotransmitters are firing on all cylinders, a lack of experience leads to a lot of hesitation and "what if" thoughts, and it ends up being either the best time of your life or the worst...there is no in-between.

Not that the words of an internet stranger matter, but I'm proud of you for being brave enough to take a chance and see what would happen. And for what it's worth, things get easier; your body will take a chill pill and you'll have experience like this one to fall back on, that will help immensely in dealing with new life events as they happen. Personally I hated being a teenager. If you feel that way too, just know it does get better.