UPDATE - I had a chat with him and he said I’ve ruined his life beyond repair , and how I’ve fucked him up so he can’t trust anyone again and started cutting and has mini heart attacks all the time .. I told him why would u stay with someone like that and he finally broke up with me and said the only reason hes breaking up with me is cuz i keep hinting at it and then said more names Bout me and said he needs a week to think and I ignored him

I know , it’s just hard as I’m so kind hearted about that sort of stuff which he know. It’s also so hard as I live in a town with no one I know and he was my first person here and my friends was his friends before he turned everyone against me . I guess hes controlling me leaving me with no one and stuck with him , even though he doesn’t act like he wants me at all, sometimes I think he’s angry at me because he’s hiding stuff

I know he is that’s the issue , but I’ve tried to leave twice and he just says I’m being a coward and need to face what I’ve done. The issue is I don’t think it’s that big of a deal we wasn’t together just talking. And he’s told all his friends and stuff, like he’s lied about alot of stuff and uses the suicide stuff also as a way I’ll stay and idk what to do it’s draining me and I’ve cut everyone else off