I've been in similar situations and it is very frustratingly true that sometimes real progress can feel like a set back. Loneliness sucks, but just like you found medication that helps with that you can find friends who can help with the loneliness.

I think this is really good. Though I would like to offer a slightly different version (because it's good to visit places if they're still good for you, just maybe you shouldn't force yourself to stay with them forever):

Stop shrinking to stay in places you've outgrown.

I find this very interesting because I never thought of it like that, not specifically anyway...

Thank you for the new perspective.

Fuck yes!

Thanks.

Yes, rewrites are for fantasies and retellings only. Life does not have a backspace key.

I know this, but it's nice to have a reminder too. Thank you.

I agree, try to find a place outside your home that's less stifling.

I'd also recommend therapy or counseling. I know it's a lot to ask of yourself to spend the money and time on it when you feel so drained and broke, but a good therapist can help you with things like changing how you react to your parents in a healthier way, finding ways to budget your time & changing unhealthy habits (you mentioned twice you don't like spending so much time scrolling), and even how to budget money so you can move out sooner. They aren't necessarily only 'Sit On Couch Talk About Feelings'. Therapy is a great investment in yourself, you just have to find one you feel comfortable with and who really helps you with what you need.

I do understand that it can be daunting to find someone to talk to, so I recommend doing a search and reading a few good articles on how to find a therapist that works for you.

And I'm really glad you reached out. That can be very hard to do in any situation, let along one as frustrating as yours. Be proud that you want to make progress and are trying.

Thanks, this one really spoke to me today.

>Not because they are great, but because of the great effort it took for you to carry them out.

Fuck yeah.

Motivation and support part of comment:

You do this one step at a time, one decision at a time, one breath at a time. Acknowledge that it's hard and unfair. Acknowledge that you're burnt out. Then keep going. Goals often look farthest away when they're just out of reach. Keep reaching, because while there are no guarantees you will get there, it's one of the only things that will improve your odds.

Practical advice part of comment:

It seems to me that one of the cruxes of your difficulties is you need the money. Is there a way you can cut back on expenses, at least for the next month or two, so you can cut back on work and finish your pressing goal of writing your thesis and studying for graduation? Can your school help with, say, meals or utilities? Or do they have an emergency fund, or guidance services that can help you find other resources? Can you explain the situation to your landlord and get a delay on paying rent - if they say yes be SURE to get it in writing? Can a friend loan you a couple hundred bucks? What are you eating, can you eat more simply? Just find a way to carve at least 50 hours out to finish your thesis.

Nice!

Thank you SO MUCH. This is precisely what I needed to hear.

Thank you, learning from others in the game of life is a pro tip that almost always makes the game of life so much more playable and better!