I'm glad you have a counsellor, I hope they're validating your worth and telling you none of this is your fault. I really wish you well and hope life gets easier and happier for you

I am so so sorry to hear this, your family are emotionally abusing you, you are not wrong to feel devastated..My wish for you is that as soon as you can you can leave these people and carve out of a wonderful life for yourself, get therapy to heal this abuse and be happy. You are not wrong or bad, they are.Do you have other family you can talk to about their behaviour? You deserve support and love