Whoa. Can this be murder or euthanasia? I realize you say you can't really change the future, but maybe you should consider leaving this guy & moving to another city to start a new life. I realize this guy you met is fun but there are other fun people in the world. Nobody is expected to be happy 100% of the time. Think of yourself as a profound person & screw the people who want you to be a Pollyanna. Roll the dice & start a new life. I'm not afraid to die at all but you can do better than death by pillow. In my vision you have more people from different backgrounds who will be caring friends/lover to you & no death by pillow.

Reminds me of when we were young & beautiful. Good times. Thank you for bringing back wonderful memories of youth with this amazing picture. This photo had a "Somewhere in Time" (film) effect on me.